Log in

dear_god_its_me's Journal
[Most Recent Entries] [Calendar View] [Friends]

Below are the 17 most recent journal entries recorded in dear_god_its_me's LiveJournal:

Monday, October 15th, 2007
3:07 am
Dear God Please,
Dear God,

Please help my dad. He is an amazing person who has done nothing but love and bring happiness to our family. Please help him get through this hardship of going through a stroke , blood clots and soon to be rehab. Please help my dad get through this. Give him strength to get through this.

Friday, February 16th, 2007
8:57 pm

Current Mood: crushed
Sunday, February 5th, 2006
10:30 pm

To all I write this, in hope that someone out there has been in this situation or can even offer some advise that can help in the long run or mostly to help with the pain.

My name is Brenda, im 18 and just finished high school in Australia, here is my story.

Help Me If You CanCollapse )

Friday, February 3rd, 2006
4:08 pm
Dear God,
was it meant to be? what are you trying to say to me? I was so happy two days ago but last night everything went bad he told me he couldn't have me but I want him I need him I love him. Why? Why can't I be with him? What do you have in store for me?

Current Mood: heartbroken
Thursday, January 26th, 2006
2:15 pm
Dear God,

What is this world that I live in? I don't even understand myself anymore. I never meant to lie, I never meant to be so mean to him. I really did and do like him but I think I might have hurt him. I'm sorry please help me through this please help me tell my friend what I think about her. I think she might be speaking behind my back and its hypocritical. She made me ask him she made me hurt him or did she? I just wanted to hurt the other girl. I am so mean. I'm sorry I sinned. Forgive me and guide me.
Thursday, January 27th, 2005
8:45 pm
I don't believe in god in the way most people talk about it. But I'm very thankful for my wonderful life. Sometimes I notice myself sub-vocalizing a heartfelt "thank-you". If I'm not thanking got, then who/what?


Thankyou!! This world is an amazaing place! Really wonderful sunset tonight!
Monday, October 11th, 2004
1:34 pm
Prayer Request:

My mom got me an interview at her job for a telemarketing position, it will be $9.00/hr. and commission with full benefits if I get it & get fulltime.
Please pray for me that I get hired and for fulltime.
Thanks and God bless :)

~* Laura *~
Thursday, September 30th, 2004
11:15 pm
I need help.

To make a long story short... I just got out of a 3 year abusive relationship, which left me the single mother of one wonderful little boy, Aidan (he'll be 2 in November). Paying for diapers, groceries, etc. wasn't a problem while I was in the relationship, but for my own health I had to get out of that.

Now, my problem is, I'm working, but I can't afford diapers, food, warm clothes, or anything I need for my son. I can barely afford the gas money to get to work, on top of babysitting $ and food.

I guess what I'm asking, and I'm sorry if I'm coming off sounding like a beggar... but if there is anyone out there who is better off than I am, if you could help me out in any way, I'd be VERY thankful. I don't have much support from my family and I really don't have any friends who could help me out, most of them are younger than I am anyways.

This is my last resort. If you could please help me, my email is plsmachic@excite.com, or I could email you if you comment with your email address.

Again, I'm sorry for asking, I just don't know where else to turn.

~* Laura *~

Current Mood: scared
Thursday, May 20th, 2004
1:08 am
are you listening?
dear god.....or whoever is up there.....

why can't jade be blessed w/ a good family? why do i have such a good family? i hardly even let them know how much i appreciate them... =/ i know jade would if she had this time of family...

why are you letting such horrible things happen to jade? god..i love her so much....i really do...and i know that we always say that we love eachother romeo and juliet style...but thats not b/c we want to go out that way.....it's jsut b/c it was love at first sight...

she's just...so amazing...and...so innocent and good hearted...but...she has no one..why? how can you let people go on when they are just...so cold...why can't ...things just be easier?

we're all so young and this is all too hard for us... so why are we here? to torture us w/ this cruel fucking world?

whatever your plan was w/ this world was....it's all gone to shit...slowly but surely this earth is falling apart....physcially and mentally...everyone..and everything...

don't get me wrong...life is bearable....but...all the good things have their faults. i feel like a rat in your giant labratory. love is the most beautiful thing ever..and i have a feeling its why we're here....but i also feel that you're still having problems fixing all of its little kinks...

lately everyones just...been so depressed..everyone i know is on medication...so..something is obviouisly wrong..can't you just fix it? let people be happy...b/c i don't see enough smiles in the day. there's been about 5 suicide in my area in the last month, god... why isn't anything being done?

we need a miracle....a giant sweep of kindness...b/c other peoples kindness and cooperation....brings happiness to others....if we were all just nicer to eachother...things wouldn't be so bad...right? i guess thats just what you're trying to get across to all of us...but....jeeze...this world is so stubborn...and in the meantime..life is just so hard.

there wasn't too much of a point to this rant...i just..never talk to you...b/c i obviously am having my doubts on religion and i'm confused w/ all of it...and sense i'm always at my computer..i'd just be more comfortable typing to you rather than talking...and having my cats look at me like i'm crazy ::smiles::

please take care of jade...i love her...and she deserves the best...i know her and i were meant to be...that you just...had her sent to me from an angel or something..hehe..b/c she has made me insanely happy at a time where i just thought i'd have this lonely feeling at the bottom of my gut forever...but i can love again and its wonderful...but the worrying....isn't...it just isn't.

everyone deserves a good family...and i wish that everyone could have one...but i really really really really wish that jade had that...b/c what i have to give her...just isn't enough to fill that feeling that good family gives you...

i just..don't want to lose her...and this...trying to kill herself stuff....just....i can't deal w/ it...okay? i mean..is this to get back at me for all the times i tried to get out of this life? well..i'm sorry..okay?! i'm so so sorry...for letting everyone else worry...i'm sorry..and i regret it....and i will devote the rest of my life to preventing others trying to do it...but....god...its so hard...and i just don't have what it takes yet..just take care of my baby...please....i need her....i really do....

love from the lab

Current Mood: worried
Friday, January 2nd, 2004
5:29 pm
random thoughts
~please let me go
~please let me smile
~please help me help others!

~push me in the right direction
~help me to the right path
~I don't know what i'm doing or where i'm goin

~should i put this effort in
~should i back away
~should i let go

~why am i here
~what i do never seems to be enough
~someone always out does me

~how did we meet
~why did we meet
~should we keep this up

Current Mood: confused
Saturday, December 27th, 2003
12:36 pm
Hi again...
Well... hurt once more, not so much betrayed, but hurt. So I want to get rid of her, push her out of my life... but I can't. I went to some of my penpaling groups on this thing, and it appears that she's in most of them. I got a christmas card from her, its the only one I haven't opened. I don't know if I want to open it. I took her off my friend's list.

I think, I'm jealous. Everyone else is happy but me. I mean I'm happy about certain things, yay great friends are happy together. But it feels just like in Milwaukee... all my friends are melting into each others friends and when I go home, they all have plans with each other, and I stand on the outside watching the fun, but I can't join.

I want someone to give a rat's ass about me. Aside from Josie. That's what I want.
Saturday, December 20th, 2003
8:51 pm
One large rant, xposted to my journal.
Its me again, your almost one and only poster... but that doesn't mean that you dont get 6 billion other people requesting stuff today.

Today's request, make people understand that I dont have time, that I have to get my ass in gear, that I need help. That telling me to make a budget does not fucking help me now. That I'm really really really really frustrated with people and life in general. I'm sick of it, I'm sick of people and I want the fuck out. But I'm still here and I'm gonna push through this fucked up world and get what I want out of it. Even if I dont know what the fuck it is that I want. Right, so how am I supposed to get something if I dont know what I want?

Do you know what I hate? People who bitch about spending too much money, and whining that they have none when they have an assload of it in the bank. Do you know how that makes me feel? It makes me feel like ass, because when I say I have no money, I literally have NO MONEY. I generally don't have a dollar. If I have a dollar, then I have money. ONE DOLLAR. I hate this system. I hate it where people are money hungry mongers who wont help out their fellow person, who pays for a crap load of shit for them. I am upset with how this works, and its not going to work this way anymore for me. Nope, no more. The bank has closed. No presents, no free food, no gas in your car, no fucking anything.

What else pisses me off? People who lack understanding in why I'm so stressed out and then ask me to calm down. I'm not gonna calm down cause you ask me or rather tell me too. It doesn't work that way. AT ALL.

Hrm, and one more rant for you Dear God/Allah/any other name you go by, I HATE that I work my ass off to fit everyone into my schedule, I skip shit, I move shit, I drive out of my way. But in the long run, I do it for someone else, but no one else does it for me. I'm tired of rearranging my life so that I can work with another person's schedule. I'm tired of making plans and then having them shot down. I'm tired... just really really tired. And the sad thing, I'm only 20.

My wish for today, is that I had had a childhood, where it was carefree and worrying about myself didn't exist. Where I had toys I could play with, where I had a mom who would take me to the zoo or the park or someplace else. Camping would have been nice. I grew up waaaay too fast, and I think it damaged my adulthood.

Thank you for listening,

Wednesday, December 17th, 2003
11:33 am
I feel fear, because people are leaving. Lots of them. Some are going home for break, some are going a little farther. I hate when people leave me. I feel left behind, because I am. Makes sense right? But I think, "what if they never remember who I was", "what if I had no impact whatsoever and was of no importance to them". The bigger better question is why would I have made an impact, why would I have been considered important? I'm not important to me, why would I be to anyone else. I don't know what else to say.. the questions run through my head.
Tuesday, December 16th, 2003
12:24 am
For Traveling -

Dear Heavenly Father,
Watch over me and protect me.
Keep me safe from harm.
See me safely to my destination.
In Your Name I pray.

For Friends -
Dear Heavenly Father,
Please watch over
[Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<friend(s)>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.]

For Traveling -

Dear Heavenly Father,
Watch over me and protect me.
Keep me safe from harm.
See me safely to my destination.
In Your Name I pray.

For Friends -
Dear Heavenly Father,
Please watch over <friend(s)>.
Keep them safe from harm.
Help them through these difficult times and hard periods.
Carry them in your arms and help them to find peace.
May they learn the lessons you have set for them.
In Your Name I pray.

For Myself -
Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for this day.
Guide my steps and lead me to what I need to find today.
In Your Name I pray.
Sunday, December 14th, 2003
4:02 am
Dear Being,
I'm not sure which you are, or if there is a right name. But I'd like to stop having to worry that my friends are going to disappear. I'm not just refering to the one in the last post. It seems like, with each guy friend I have, he's a friend until he finds a person of the opposite sex. Once he finds this girl, or perhaps its a guy, I dont really care one way or the other. When he finds his significant other I cease to exist. I stop becoming good enough, and do you know what? That hurts. It hurts a lot. But I stick around cause I care way too much, and I've invested a lot of my time, on said person. Help?

Thank you.
Saturday, December 13th, 2003
11:48 am
A request of staying power...
I've got this friend and the thing is, that he left once already. He left for a year. A whole year of having lost my best friend and a lot has changed since we last talked, and a lot has stayed the same. I still have a general concept of who he is, and he definitely knows who I am. The first week, he wanted everything we had before we stopped talking, and it was great, it was how it was supposed to be. So I'm asking, whoever wants to listen to this little request. I'm asking that he doesn't leave again. I'm asking that he stays here, in my life, as even just a small portion of my life. Though I would really like him to be a bigger portion. That's his decision. Yes it is.
Friday, December 12th, 2003
2:00 pm
The first entry
Well I created this community because I'm in pain over many a thing. I'll probably be the most often poster and I'm okay with that. And so today I ask for help with my break up with Sean. I hurt him, I hate hurting people. I want him to not hurt. I had to do it, I needed to not be in a relationship. I feel so wrong. So very very wrong.
About LiveJournal.com